How can I have nothing to say?

The power was out today and I as going to be unable to check my email. Then it came back on and I rushed to the post office.
I paid my 50 shillings and sat down to take care of a few things.
They are done now. And as my final 15 minutes rolls out...I find that I am...empty. It seems.
There are tons of things that I could talk about, but nothing that impels me to speak about it.
Its the same experience that I had on the phone with my mom over the weekend.
Lots of long silences where I couldn't think of anything to say.
Ask me a direct question and get a dragged out vague answer.
Then more silence.
Then I go into a tangential (but really unrelated) story and talk rapid fire for several minutes about no one particular thing.
Then more silence.
There is tons to pour out, but it doesn't really lend itself to easy to digest narratives.
It just sort of comes out when it comes out.
Yesterday, I had a good cry. I came back home and was changing, so my shades were drawn. And as it happened there was a radio playing near my window and for the first time since I have arrived here, I felt like I regained my private space. No one could see me and (with the newly present radio) no one could hear me. And I just kind of released.
I had come back from a basin bath and was getting dressed and I sat down on my bed and just sort of cried myself out for 5-10 minutes.
It wasn't depression or a tragic and dramatic day. It wasn't cruelty or even lonliness really. I just sort of felt private again for a second and it was so relieving, I just welled up.
I suppose we had just had a fairly emotional day as well. My language cluster has reached the open conflict stage.
Or at least, I seem to have forced the issue. So we had a few problems and had to hash them out.
I think things are okay now, but we are still in the process of rebuilding and re-evaluating.
I would be lost without them and I am doing everything I can to get things back on track, but it takes time.
And I won't discount that the madonna album playing in the background is affecting me.
I will be in Nairobi the weekend after this one and hope to upload photos.
You can text my phone at +254 0723-718-1